On getting back on the cushion…
You know, some mornings you get up, wash your face, drink some water, stretch the kinks out and sit down on the cushion (in my case a zafu, though not because of any particular commitment to zazen) and begin to let Mind go….
… and I find myself lost in a maze of thinking, then I notice that everything hurts and my nose is running and itches arise and just as I start to settle in a little, thoughts of self-congratulation come up and I’m back in the maze.
I keep it up for what seems like a whole Yuga (actually about 13 minutes), and then I give up, “today’s not the right day to meditate, too much on, I can’t be expected to find stillness”. I get up off the cushion, make myself a coffee and wander into the backyard to watch Anthony watering the garden, and then I wander back upstairs to start work out here on the web…
… and then, suddenly, I get back on the cushion and relax back out of Mind and this time, it’s all different, it all drops away, bodymind flows with gentle energetic sensations and opens out.
The moral? Who knows. It’s OK to give up and it’s good to try again.
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